How would you describe yourself in five words?

Shy, insecure and sensitive, but also (more than people usually think) interesting and intelligent.

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What's the most challenging piece you've ever created?

I don't know if there is exactly one of my pieces that was more challenging than the others... but there's something I often feel during the time I spend with each project. Usually I'm working on something with a specific idea in my mind since the first moment, but during the process, something doesn't work as I planned and everything changes. At that time I always think that I fucked it up, and I think obsessively about the project during some days (because I'm a bit obsessed with coherence in my work). But at some point something clicks in my head and everything fits perfectly, and the result is always more interesting than the idea I had at first in my mind! I pressure myself so much during all this process but the result is always worth it.

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If you were in a band, what kind of music would you play?

Probably it would be a solo project, a mix of dream pop and noise, with electronics and a bit experimental. The lyrics would be sincere and they would talk about daily things, and probably it would have influences from '80s and '90s underground Japanese music because it's what I'm listening most right now.

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When was the last time you tried something new?

This is not about my photographic work, but the last thing that I did was my zine まったり(Mattari). I used to make fanzines at school, but four years ago I got tired of making them (but not of buying and reading them!). During those years, I always said that I wanted to come back to zines, but my insecurities always stopped me. But finally, at the end of 2017, I put myself a deadline and did my first zine in years. It is a very personal fanzine about a lot of things that make me feel happy. This zine is all handmade, and I tried a more collage style than I used to do in the past, full of stickers and cute little things.

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What's the most provocative piece you've ever created?

I don't think that my photos are provocative... but maybe the most groundbreaking (?) projects I have are the ones that involved my boyfriend Kos as a muse. In Spanish, the word "musa" (muse) is only a feminine word, and the concept of "muso" (muse as a man) doesn't exist. The dictionary (and also the popular knowledge) doesn't include the existence of a man as the fount of inspiration for a woman because women are usually relegated to be the muses (objectified) and men the master/artists who are inspired by that precious and sacred thing that are women.

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If a movie was made about your life, what actor/actress would play you and what would the film be called?

I would be interpreted by the Heather Matarazzo of Welcome to the Dollhouse. In that film, she (not the character, just her) was so me in my pre-teen and teen years. Once a guy told me that I looked like her, and I was annoyed by that comment, but actually, it's true (especially when I'm wearing my glasses). I'm not the most beautiful girl in town, so what? And about the name of the film, I don't know, but probably something about being the weird girl of the class forever, even in most of the spaces now in my adult life, not feeling confident or comfortable in almost anywhere.

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What are the top two compliments you hear from people about yourself?

People sometimes tell me that I'm so 'authentic', like just being myself, and tell that I have a special personality. Also, I don't know if this counts as a compliment but I love when people tell me that my zine made them feel well. I appreciate those comments so much. Thank you to these people!

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What inspires you?

Great people that I find special or charming for some reason, lights, colors...

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What is your most valuable skill?

I think that I'm not the best to define my best skill, but I asked some of my friends and they all say that I've got good taste and intuition to combine elements and colours, so I suppose it's true. Also, people usually say that I know how to listen and they feel confident by my side.

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What's the best piece you've ever created?

I don't know if there's one best piece of my whole work, but there are definitely some pieces that I appreciate especially, like my project 'Serín', my first official photographic project, that is a celebration of my love for Kos. That project is also special because was my first work of analogue photography and I developed and did it all by myself. Other projects that are special for me are my series of Japan, my zine まったり, the photos (and interview) of Jender Anomie, and something that is unpublished yet!

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Any advice for new artists?

This is especially for women: I know it sometimes can be difficult but believe in yourself. I'm sure that your successes are deserved. I'm not going to say that the success is just conditioned by hard work because I'm conscious that we live in a world with a lot of oppression and privileges, but try not to push yourself down. (I don't know if this is any good advice, but maybe this parenthesis is caused by impostor syndrome.)

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What is a movie moment that completely transformed you?

It's not exactly a movie moment, and actually I didn't think about this until this question, but the first day of this year I re-watched Matilda and I remember that I used to love this movie so much as a child and I saw it in my childhood multiple times. When I was a child I wanted to be as intelligent and kind as her, and I think that that film made me appreciate things like kindness and little pleasures in life.

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What do you consider to be the highlight of your life?

Definitely my trip to Tokyo. It was my all-time dream and still today I can't believe I achieved it by myself so young.

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What makes you smile?

Being with my friends seeing shitty videos on YouTube at home, eating cake with my Lolita gang in my hometown, or finding treasures on the internet while I'm looking for old Japanese stuff for hours.

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Lastly, what are you currently working on?

I'm working on some secret projects! But my next thing would be a zine about my relationship with Lolita subculture, which is something so important for me since 2011. It will include some texts about it and a lot of photos of one of my beloved Lolita friends, who was someone so relevant and special for the Spanish Lolita community. I love her so much and I want to make her the homage that she deserves.

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You can view more of Zazi White's work by heading to zaziwhite.com.