Ever since Daniel Day-Lewis's agent announced the notoriously private actor's impending retirement from acting after Paul Thomas Anderson's Phantom Thread, lovers of great cinema have been lamenting.

The actor himself has stayed relatively silent – until now, opening up some in an interview with W Magazine. The interview says he only spoke about his plans with his wife, director and writer Rebecca Miller. Day-Lewis had considered retiring in the past (which is often why his breaks between films were so long), but a new director or new story would typically find its way to (as Phantom Thread did) get "its hooks into me."

Day-Lewis goes on, "Before making the film, I didn't know I was going to stop acting … I do know that Paul and I laughed a lot before we made the movie. And then we stopped laughing because we were both overwhelmed by a sense of sadness. That took us by surprise: We didn't realize what we had given birth to. It was hard to live with. And still is."

See the trailer for Phantom Thread below and catch the film in theaters this Christmas.